I AM NOT MY HAIR!!

Good evening beautiful people. I am writing this much awaited and very anticipated post. I am EXTREMELY nervous about this but what better time then the present. So strap in and lets go for a ride through my hair journey....

Alright so I am a mixed female and for as long as I can remember I used to wear my natural hair. When I was a young girl, I rocked the pig tails, and the cornrows. When Jheri curls were out yes I rocked that too. Then I went to relaxers and for those that do not know what a relaxer is, it is the opposite of a perm for Caucasian women. A perm for them is to curl their hair and a relaxer for us is to straighten our hair. I used to get my hair relaxed every 4-6 weeks with touch ups in between time. I did this for years but in the summer I would rock braids. I also wished I had long luxurious hair when I was younger. I remember when I was a little girl I would throw a towel on my head and a headband to keep it in place and swing my "hair" around. I was never the one to appreciate or love MY hair. In fact I hated it, I hated people seeing the real me. If it was time to get my hair done I would take whatever I had in at the time down, wash it and go the next day to get it redone. To this day I am still that way, however I have had a breaking point. Today I am revealing ME and all my naturalness. Usually the only people that see my hair is myself and whomever is doing it at the time. I continuously get comments about how my hair is so long, so thick so beautiful etc etc but I have yet to believe it. My head was filled with your hair is so nappy and so ugly by my peers when I was younger, I don't see how it's any different now.....but in saying that I am about to embark on a new journey and a new year since my birthday is coming up in two days this is my "coming out" party LOL



Lately, I have realized that however I am in this moment I am beautiful, I was beautifully, fearfully and wonderfully made and I need to embrace that. So this is me embracing it. I decided to show my hair in its many states. My real natural, grown from my head state LOL. I have done the weaves, the braids, the twist, and everything in between. Although I am showing this I would like to say this is a HUGE deal for me. I did end up getting my hair done today in a twist style but regardless of me doing that I feel accomplished that I am showing you all the real ME....

For the last SEVERAL years my hair has looked like this

Small Micro Braids

And I even change up the color

I wore this style for years so just recently about 3-4 months ago I decided to change it up. Now I used to wear whats called "Kinky Twist" all the time back in Michigan but since I have lived in Cali I have yet to get them done and one day I decided to do something different and this is what I just took out and had replaced, except I replaced it with a different color same style 

My kinky twist

So after taking these twist out, I washed my hair thoroughly and conditioned it, this is what my hair looks like curly......brace ya selves lol

There it is..nice tight coily curls. It is not nappy I can rake my fingers through it just fine and a comb too lol

All blown out!! Who knew there was that much hair from looking at those tight coils 

So from there I decided to flat iron it....first time putting heat like that in my head in well over a few years. Sometimes I don't even blow dry I just comb out and let it air dry.

Almost done

Final product!! Unfortunately I couldn't take a pic of the back because I'm not that talented lol and I pulled it over toward one side because I was feeling myself I thought I was CUTE haha

So during this process it was fun, yet exhausting. It was freeing and liberating. It was refreshing to know, my hair is apart of me. Its coily texture is cute to some, ugly to others but who cares? Because I am not my hair, I am not your expectations either....

SS <3

Thanks for reading...comments, shares, and subscribers are ALWAYS welcomed.

            India Arie I am not my hair

P.S. While getting my hair done today my beautician found....

A GRAY HAIR!!!!

So let me just say..finding this two days before you are turning another year OLDER is NOT okay lol. I'm old.....

P.S.S. If you look closely you can see the new color that was twisted into my hair. Pics of that coming soon.